One of the best times in life is to achieve something we dream for long. A life which all of us wish, we all want to have a successful, happy and better life. Living a comfortable life is much easy than struggling every day for your survival. My life is hard and difficult, every day you have to strive hard, facing different challenges. Sometimes, you want to end your life because you cannot handle the pain anymore, it gets harder and harder every day. Sometimes I have asked God “why he keeps allowing this thing to happen to me? And why out of all the people in the world, I was picked to suffer?” It is hard to have this kind of life, people don’t like you and feel like you are trash, many of them tried to drag you down, pull you off until you have nothing anymore. You feel depressed, and it sucks, you are tired of things you cannot control, you are tired of people, and you want to live alone. You are just tired of everything around you and feel lazy to make things out. It feels like; you do not want to rise in the morning and keep crying as no one hears you. Tired to be used with many people and it sucks because you try to fit them, and they don’t accept you. And no matter how hard you work, you don’t belong to them.
There are times in my life; I have accepted my faith, to remain for who I am and stop trying so hard for people who can’t love me. My life is complicated, growing up poor is hard, every day I need to wake up early and sleep late. And that is my daily routine. I have a big family. Unfortunately, my dad leaves us when he can’t manage to raise mom and us was so devastated to it and had mental illness because of she can’t accept the situation happened to us; she went to the mental hospital to be treated. I am left with my five siblings, all are still little, and I have to stand parents to them. It is hard, and sometimes I don’t know what to do. I have a boyfriend that I thought he would be with me for the rest of my life, I thought he would help me, but still choose to betray and cheated me. I have to continue my life even I am in pain inside. I found out about Tooting Escorts from https://charlotteaction.org/tooting-escorts, and try to audition myself there. Lucky to be chosen and started working as a Tooting Escorts which is a great help to my living. My life is now better than before.